Hanging

Do you experience moments
when you smile to yourself
knowing my heart still beats only for you?
Do you think of my touch
reaching you over these many miles
as another draws your attention away?

Is there ever a time
your thoughts of me arouse you
and cause you to touch upon memories of what we'd had?
Have you ever called out my name
in intimate embraces,
as I have called you incessantly with others?

I leave you missives
of my undeniable love
and wait as patiently as any man can.
So much lost
and so many questions
swirl through my anguished, tormented mind.

I see you sitting in your favorite chair,
or talking with a friend,
smiling in the knowledge of my calls but revealing nothing.
Keeping your joy or sadness
completely to yourself.
Do you think it fair to withhold the truth from even me?