Here, Without You

Like a lightning bolt to the heart
I sat stunned & enthralled there,
your eyes staring back at me
over the rim of your glass of Coke.

It was at that very moment,
with your smiling & beguiling,
I could feel the future I feared & greatly desired --
a future of you & me -- had finally begun.

Tender moments spent alone with you --
frightening sounds in the forest all round.
The long conversations we'd shared,
though no words did we need to exchange.

There was also enjoyment felt
as you'd ensnare the unsuspecting --
leading them on with their very own words,
only to leave them crushed at the realization of their folly.

What I miss most about you
are those silent conversations we'd had.
Feeling so content in you,
wishing they would never end.

The nights we'd shared in my Astorian lurch,
making love, caressing, & the whispers in the dark,
I cannot know with another --
my regrets at so many years now without you.

The times we'd shared --
all the good & all the bad --
fill my mind with desires
which come flowing in spasms from my heart.

This new silence between us
is not so warm, so filled with truth.
It screams & echoes through my emptiness,
my barren life here, without you.

A Different Angle

And I don't know what to do now --
if never again I'll be with you.
Zeppelin on shuffle brings me back --
dancin' days if only you'd make me your man.

Is it another man, or fear of what's gone on
that keeps you hiding, unwilling to talk with me --
the word of another too close & corrupted by drink
without the reality of the third voice to see what is?

You know better than any other
the man I am -- the years will never change.
Have you not questioned even once
that which you know cannot be true?

Let me back into your heart, your thoughts --
the very essence of what is you.
Such a future you won't regret
when it's your happiness I seek to forever bring.

How can you move on like this
without taking a chance, without a word exchanged?
Any place you go, I'll be with you --
the strength of that which is us will not let you go.