Here, Without You

Like a lightning bolt to the heart
I sat stunned & enthralled there,
your eyes staring back at me
over the rim of your glass of Coke.

It was at that very moment,
with your smiling & beguiling,
I could feel the future I feared & greatly desired --
a future of you & me -- had finally begun.

Tender moments spent alone with you --
frightening sounds in the forest all round.
The long conversations we'd shared,
though no words did we need to exchange.

There was also enjoyment felt
as you'd ensnare the unsuspecting --
leading them on with their very own words,
only to leave them crushed at the realization of their folly.

What I miss most about you
are those silent conversations we'd had.
Feeling so content in you,
wishing they would never end.

The nights we'd shared in my Astorian lurch,
making love, caressing, & the whispers in the dark,
I cannot know with another --
my regrets at so many years now without you.

The times we'd shared --
all the good & all the bad --
fill my mind with desires
which come flowing in spasms from my heart.

This new silence between us
is not so warm, so filled with truth.
It screams & echoes through my emptiness,
my barren life here, without you.